Rural Rounds

In psychiatry, there's a set of three patterns of thought that are observed in depression known as the cognitive triad. The cognitive triad consists of the following: A negative view of oneself A negative interpretation of experience A negative view of the future Outside of clinical depression syndromes, I feel it adequately describes the pattern of thinking in any episode of depressed mood. Having tried to think through my own periods of moodiness and depression, I've found that the mood often exists and persists only when all three patterns of thought are present. More on this later, but first a breakdown of how the triad has occured in my own thought process. To start, I've had a decent amount of difficulty with self-esteem, and with large groups of people social anxiety as well. When I begin to start feeling depressed, it will often start with "a negative interpretation of experience". Usually with people this manifests as an anxiety that the person or people ...

Last week was the end of block test week, and at the very end of the week, on Friday, I left for Mexico, Missouri for my church's annual 22-hour retreat. For the last two years it has been perfectly scheduled to coincide with the very end of test week and the beginning of break week, and both times so far has been an incredibly refreshing way to escape the world of academic medicine and the bustle of the city. "Cell phones don't work out here," I mused on the drive out to the camp. The camp where we hold our retreat is several small buildings owned by a Baptist church group out that way that allows us to use it each year. The property is the size of several football fields, with a creative array of fields, wooded hollows, remnants of a creek and some runoff lanes between rises in the ground. There's a lake with a dock that is the perennial wilderness baptismal. There's also a barn-like building that now serves as a chapel. A firepit next to an outdoor ampithea...

The summer research jump from last year to this year has been quite a step. I did a small research project, not too terribly important, last summer, that was published in a free online-only journal (in other words, not a real big deal, but worth being proud of). This past summer, I worked on infectious disease research in the pediatric department at the University's Children's hospital. My mentor, Dr. Mato, gave me and my classmate Amanda assurance that we would most definately see our work published. Yesterday, when I dropped by Dr. Mato's office while up on the pediatrics floor, she spoke of submitting my research for the Pediatric Academic Societys' annual meeting in Toronto for presentation. If my work is accepted, it would mean the chance to present my poster and research in front of doctors and researchers from across the country. Being only a medical student at best, I was humbled to find out she sees us presenting research amists other researchers who have done ...